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A Love Like That February 18, 2009

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So I have been bothered by the whole Twilight Series over one simple fact. Since I have to be at class soon I will try to sum it up quickly on here.

I cannot comprehend Edward’s love for Bella. It has bothered me so much. However, in finishing the books and seeing the film many times over this past weekend, I am finding that I am beginning to compare the love of vampires as Eternal Love. At least in the Cullen’s sense. When you look at it: Carlise’s love for Esme, Emmett’s for Rosalie or rather Rosalie’s for Emmett, Alice’s love for Jasper…..they are these super strong bonds. Eternal love.

One thing that is sticking out to me is two scenes from the movie:

The first is when we first are introduced to the Cullen children…When Alice is introduced Jasper lightly twirls her as if showing her off. What a big statement about their relationship. We see that they are comfortable with each other. We also see how each of them look at each other. With such love and care and knowing. It’s amazing.

The next scene is when they are in the car taking Bella out of Forks, Alice places her hand out at the same time that Jasper grabs to reach it. It’s not a grab motion at all. In fact, it’s as if they were fitting two pieces of a puzzle together. It’s crazy.

I just cannot fathom this eternal, everlasting, unbreaking love that the Cullen family has.

I can sort of fathom it if it relate it to God’s everlasting love for us. And maybe that’s how I am supposed to see it. As a sign, a huge note. But to see it in a real fiction character….It makes me want to believe that it’s real when everything I have experienced tells me it’s not. What does one do? This unbelievable sense of love. What does one do with it?


Watching February 16, 2009

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So I saw Twilight 3 times this weekend. Thursday, Saturday, and tonight. Each night I noticed something different each time.

For example: I noticed that James says to Waylen “Nice Jacket” and after Waylen is dead, James wears the jacket for the rest of the movie.

I noticed small things: things on Bella’s walls, Edwards moment of vulnerability, and so on. 

It was interesting. While I think the movie is horrible in the technical sense, like the book, I still love the story and the characters are played well. Bella could be a little more dynamic, but K Stew is K Stew and well not that great.

I love Rob though. I think he does a good Edward. Especially because he chooses to use facial expressions to convey Edward’s feelings. Edward is not very good at expressing his real feelings. It’s interesting. Edward’s character is something I would like to encounter in real life. I want to be amazed at his mere personality. There’s a line in the movie that sticks with me. Bella has just revealed the fact that she realizes he’s a vampire. He shows her all the things that make him the world’s greatest predator. Bella tells him she’s not afraid. The following conversation ensues:

Edward: I can’t read your mind. You have to tell me what you’re thinking.

Bella: Now I’m afraid.

Edward: Good.

Bella: I’m not afraid of you. I’m afraid of losing you. I, I just feel like you’re going to disappear again.

Edward: You don’t know how long I’ve waited for you.

Unreal. I can’t fathom it. And it happens. I have friends who can prove that something like this happens! Not vampire human love, but love in the purest sense. Love at first sight. Love love love. 

And I wonder…How long will I have to wait? How many decades? I’m not immortal. So how long?


Thoughts On Bond February 14, 2009

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I want to examine this line from Casino Royale and think about it in other terms.

Vesper Lynd: You’re not going to let me in there, are you? You’ve got your armour back on. That’s that. 
James Bond: I have no armour left. You’ve stripped it from me. Whatever is left of me – whatever is left of me – whatever I am – I’m yours.

Now. James has just been very much injured…its probably the one part of the movie I cannot sit through, even though he laughs during a part of it. And Vesper is talking to him and this is the part where he tells her he loves her and yadda. I never really thought there was supposed to be a love story with James Bond, but then again I never watched the classic ones. Which I should do, I know. But I find these lines interesting.

Jame’s Armour is his secrets. He has some he won’t tell Vesper even though he says that he has no armour left. That he is completely and utterly hers. I’m a bit confused but its the line that stuck out to me the most in the movie. It was just simply there and nagging at me for the last 25 minutes of the movie. REally James? Really?

One of my favorite scenes in the movie is the part of the stairwell chase and Vesper is sitting in the shower. She is shaken but what she has just witnessed, not quite as strong as James thought her to be. James goes and sits with her in the shower and “takes care of her” so to speak. Thus starts and sparks their new romance. There we see Vespers Vulnerability and later we see James Vulnerability in his armour speech. 

So what do I think this all says….

In order to be completely in love with another person and to give yourself over to them fully, you must be completely shed of all armour and vulnerable. You must deal out your faults, your fears, and so on. You must give up yourself  (as does the other person). To each other in all honesty is to know the faults of the other. To know their strengths and their weaknesses. 

You catch my drift? Thoughts? Opinions? Arguments?


Another Side of Me July 19, 2008

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So I have many sides. I have been called a horse of many colors. Sort of like the one in the Wizard of Oz. I grew up wanting to be one of the guys, i love sports, I’m an artist, I love theatre, and well…I’m a girl.

Now most girls have a need to be loved or told that they are loved. Today, however, the term “love” the idea of romance seems to be gone. So in a day where most girls drop all their standards for the first guy that notices them, I choose to hang on to the fantastic Mr. Darcy Idea of a man. I guess you can call me a romantic.

By now you are probably trying figure out why I let you in on another part of myself. It has to do with my cousin, who I tend to worry about a lot.

This week we were at the beach as a family. I love my family, but my cousin Kate and I just butt heads a lot. She’s about 5 months younger than me and totally boy crazy. She has always been boy crazy. So much infact, that she continues to hang around guys that continually break her heart over and over again. She just lets them walk all over her. Katie tells me “This guy really pissed me off. I’m not talking to him until he shapes up.” Then when we are down the beach, she decides to go over his house just to say hi. Ok, there’s nothing wrong about going to say hi. But if you are going to not talk to a guy to prove a point, you shouldn’t just waltz on over to say hi. It’s frustrates me because I want her to be happy and I want her to find a nice guy, but she always seems to find the jerks. Then I get dragged along to meet them or wait while she has long long conversations with them. Like I said, frustrating.

I guess it’s different. I mean I’m here waiting for a guy to come along, ask me on a few dates before even considering asking to be his girlfriend, a guy who likes to dance, smile, and doesn’t mind that I’m a juggler and artist(the acting kind). I like walking and enjoying simple things and music. I love music! Singing and dancing. Maybe my idea of the perfect guy, won’t happen. Well that’s not true. He exists somewhere, but I don’t know where. 

I know that we all have different ideas of the perfect guy/girl. The one you are supposed to be with forever. With the divorce rate being as high as it is today and so many people being unhappy in their marriages and so on, it’s hard to believe in the original idea of love. But I believe in it. I really really hope my cousin finds it. I mean we are 21 and I know that is young, but I have only had one real boyfriend and that ended badly. I have a best friend and while I would love to marry him, I know we are set to be on different paths and those paths may never cross. If I have learned one thing from him, is that there is someone out there who is like him who is going to love me for who I am and what I love and what I do.

So with that said…Here is the hopeless romantic in me. I love this side of me. Though at times it makes me depressed and unhappy, I know that my Perfect Man is somewhere out there.

And for those of you who are looking for a good movie about the Perfect Man try these:

The Wedding Date 


The Perfect Man (yes the one with Hil Duff)