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Lines, Vines, and Trying Times June 15, 2009

This is the title of the new Jonas Brothers Cd that comes out Tuesday, Tomorrow, June 16th. I will post a review when I get it, but hear me out.

I’ve been thinking a lot lately. The past week or two have been stressful and emotional. Though I have made a break through. 

For the title of their new album, the boys decided to go with a theme that has been occurring in their lives: Growing Up. It was explained in an interview with Kevin like this:

Lines: are lies that you tell or have been told

Vines: Strangle you or hold you back

Trying Times: no explanation needed

IN essence, growing up. We all experience lies, things that hold us back, and trying times. While the title may sound redundant it’s very reflective of life.

I’ve been experiencing these so called “growing pains” and I realized that I just need to make decisions and settle down. Yes, I’ll be doing it alone and we all know that I have a fear of being alone, however, this is no different than anything else I’ve done before in my life. I just need to go and do it. There  is a line in one of Kenny Chesney’s songs that goes like this: I knew I could never hold that girl, she was born to see the world. Well, as much as I want to stay at home and be with my family, I can’t. I know where I belong and what I need to do and it’s not going to happen in Philly, the subburbs, or in PA. I need to move. I’m just scared. Moving, alone, means starting over completely. In a new state, a new area, far from home…yes 15 hours by car, 2 by plane. Florida. Disney World. August is my deadline. I have until August to figure out if moving is the right thing for me. A mid-July trip to Orlando and the surrounding area is the perfect way to scope things out and make sure. If it doesn’t work out, well I can always come home and try again.

Another thing that’s been bugging me is that I really don’t see people. The one person I thought I would see a lot of, I’m not and it stinks. It turns out that this person is apparently, according to them, is not the person whom I thought they were. This person no longer calls or cares I guess. Which is fine since this person is moving far away at the end of the summer. To be honest, I saw this coming. I just was sort of hoping this person would prove me wrong or would be different than everyone else I know. But disappointment is never far away. I haven’t really been social because there is no one around here. But this does open up time to read, write, learn guitar, and so on. 

I’m not depressed or upset about what has been going on this summer. Yes, it gets stressful and frustrating with my parents and the job thing, but I’m content. I love being here and just relaxing. I need this, for my health and sanity. I like to ease into things and this is the perfect way to do that. I have the rest of my life to work. I’m still young and a knockout (personality wise). A lot of people understand me, no one will ever understand my obsession with the Jonas Brothers, but I could care less. I am who I am. And my obsession with the Jonas Brothers is because they are a group of great musicians with good heads on their shoulders. One day people will see that. Half the time, if people didn’t know the Jonas Brothers were singing a certain song, people would like their music. I’ll get on that soapbox another time. 

But life is life and I am excited to listen to Paranoid and Fly With Me all the time as well as the other music that will help me get through my own Lines, Vines, and Trying Times.

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